My Failure

The success of a teacher is not only measured on the skills and intelligence of his students. A teacher does not only teach subjects but he should develop a student's character as a whole. He is a mentor, a molder of tomorrows citizens. His students are his pride. 

I was pondering on this thought over and over again and have concluded to myself that I have failed. I was not able to teach them well. I was not able to mold them well. I was not able to develop a good attitude in them. How can I take pride with my students if they exhibited an unacceptable behavior towards me?

I have been doing my best to fulfill my responsibilities. I always made sure that they will learn the lessons, that they wont leave my room without gaining any. I maybe strict in some ways but God knows that my intentions are pure, I only want the best for my students. But amidst my effort to be true  to my oath, I still failed. 

My heart felt an unbearable pain upon reading the comments of my former marine students in Facebook. They cursed me, they hated me. For what reason? They hated me because I did not allow them to pass my subject without taking multiple removal exams. They hated me because I repeatedly corrected their errors. They hated me for trusting and believing in them. 

I just didn't want to fail any of them, I sacrificed my salary because I submitted my grades very late just to wait for them. I am deeply disappointed with my self because I FAILED. 

What happened has happened already and cannot be changed. But I am still thankful for the lesson I learned from that experience.